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I just thought I would share this book with everyone. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!!

The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom

By Don Miguel Ruiz

The Four Agreements is changed my attitudes, the way I allow the relationships in my life to affect ME and the way I coexist in my world with the things I feel the need to surround myself with. I am highly recommending this book to EVERYONE I KNOW.

THE FOLLOWING ARE THE AGREEMENTS

1) Always do your best.

2) Don't make assumptions.

3) Never take anything personally.

4) Be impeccable with your word.

Simple? HAHAH~ Probably Not!!! But I am sure going to give them a whirl.

If you decide to read the book, let me know your thoughts.

I am so looking forward to the LONG weekend and a much needed DAY OFF. I posted to my facebook page the other day that I needed a package delivered to me of SPARE TIME..... As I seem to never have enough time in my day for ME.... I am hoping to catch up with myself at some point and EXHALE....

Until next time~ Blessed be >>> The season is fast approaching.. HURRAY FOR FALL.My Favorite followed by a close runner up for favorite... WINTER... HIP HIP HURRAY :>)~

There is nothing better than bon-fires, great friends and gooey melting s'mores~ Ok wait....Maybe an evening curled in my favorite chair with a JANE AUSTIN NOVEL and a great big cup of hot chocolate ( the bigger the better) and glancing up and seeing the SNOW gentle fall .....

I am off to shop for mums for the flower beds tomorrow... Smiles ~<:)> it is going to be a GREAT WEEKEND.

Teek

ANTICIPATION

I so can not wait for NOVEMBER..... The next installment in the generation long movie epic Harry Potter. I am a huge fan and have read all the books with the exception of the last book. I can not bear to see the story end. I sat in tears when my favorite character died, well two of my favorite characters have died. I am a little afraid..I know~ what ? afraid, well anyway call me a looser!! I am ok with it!!!! I am sure Barbara will have to drive me home when we go cause I will be an emotional wreck... Non the less, this is for Barb and our upcoming date and all the other Harry Potter fans around the world.....
Love ya Barbie~ Your the best movie partner a girl could ask for...MUAH~ XOXOX





Since we are speaking of November I thought I would leave you with a song .... Love me some GNR~






E-loumination started this movie anticipation thanks loum.. Check out his Blog post at http://eloumination.blogspot.com/ ... He always has something witty to tell us about . I am still awaiting the online dating blog update...Lets go Loum it is time.


Hope everyone is having a relaxing Sunday afternoon.....~
Teek

The Beautiful Blogger Award

I have finally won something.

A little back story....
I was that kid who would go to the local carnivals and spend all her change on tickets to play the carnival games and never win a thing. I had the good fortune of having a brother who could win with his eyes closed. Thank you Jay for giving me the biggest Pebbles ( Flintstones boys and girls) stuffed animal any girl could want.
I would go to bingo with my Parents and Aunts and those peeps would play bingo with 7000 cards and 3 packs a smokes a piece and they would yell BINGO all the time...This chick has never bingo dobbed a bingo card in her life with any success. I was the girl who did the Good Luck Dance around the chair that I was going to sit in and watch my cards faithfully like an obsessed nanny with my toes crossed and my legs too cause I always had to pee because the hall caller was on crack and called those numbers like an auctioneer and I never had time to run to the bathroom....
I have been to Vegas several times and never come home with anything other than a headache from the cheap booze and the sounds of the machines...Oh I hate the sound of slot machines...
So we all can see I don;t win much....

So Onreeone has given me this blog award....Thank you lady ~apparently she was so excited for me too come collect it and play the game that she called me in the middle of the night like a gazillion times and even called me a BITCH~ hey FUCK OFF!!! and told me to get my award...OK, OK ALREADY~ PSSSTTTT...I have been working and getting the little's ready for school.
She herself has been blogging her summer adventures in picnics and her children's growing pains and empty nest syndrome.... Click the link above if you dont follow her already. She is sure to put a smile on your face. Her glasses rock my world and I am gonna have to get myself a similar pair ~

I will Post my nominations over the weekend.
Have a terrific Friday peeps.~ Teek

Some Pink for your day~~~ Love her

Things Long Forgotten

I came across an old box today
Brought tears and smiles my way
I opened it thinking I might just throw
it all away.....

Letters from a love long past... Postmarked from 1986-1995. All neatly wrapped with the lace I wore around my neck to prom in 1988. photos of individuals who look like strangers but familiar in my brain...... I am not sure why I have kept them as We have not been together since 1995... Reading the damn things gave me a migraine from crying. Crying for all the memories that were good..... and gone, buried far away....replaced with memories that were bad, that over shadow the good that can never be taking away... Why is it so hard to forgive, Why are we creatures of hate? Why Are we so inclined to forgo forgiveness? Why is the hardest part of forgiveness, the ability to forgive ones self ?
I often think of what I would say if I had the courage. Would the words even come out like they play in my brain? Probably not, I tell my self why worry about it anyway, you will never have the opportunity. I know I tell myself that for fear of rejection. I do not believe myself a coward, I believe myself still deeply ashamed, and horrible scared. Fear of the unknown keeps us from doing so many things.
I am hoping I have with in this destiny a path yet to walk, one that is understanding and forgiving and forged with compassion. Compassion for the human nature of mistakes and lessons learned and humble in its ability to be see the truth for what it is. I may never know for my fear is real, the one true demon per say that I battle every day. I believe we are our own worst criticizer, that our demon will sit with us until we cease to exist.
Even after all this time, all the tears and for all the reaching being done, my ability to take the first step may never happen. For I have yet to learn how to properly balance the darkness of my past, with the light of my future. Maybe, just maybe one day this too shall pass...WHO KNOWS
What I do know right this moment is broken hearts do mend, SLOWLY and we all seek what you know because it is comfortable and EVERY LOVE IS MEASURED/JUDGED BY YOUR FIRST LOVE~ WE/ THEY are all alike we just choose to see or not see the similarities, unless those similarities suit our purpose.

He looks the same today just a wiser, older~ with his beautiful, witty wife and amazingly talented and beautiful children all 5 of them. I was surprised to look at pictures just today and still see that mischievous smile and sparkle in his eye. It was great to see that smile... ( No I am not stalking my ex. ) Just his Fab Wife.. Cause I secretly wish I had her glasses :)
Fab wife ~thanks so much for being the bigger person and reaching out when I didn't,.... gimme those glasses already

~ I kept the box and its content,
Tucked it back in the closet for another day~

AND SO SHE BEGINS.........AGAIN

AUGUST ~ THE HARVEST HAS BEGUN
~The bountiful harvest that are to come and the ripening fruits that are to bare her loving gifts of tireless work. Reap her rewards and waste none, for soon her fullness will be done~




AUGUST 1ST.......~ LAMMAS. BLESSED ARE THE BOUNTIES OF THE FIRST HARVEST~ WHEAT AND BARLEY.....Bake a taste bread...but be mindful of the season to come and for every cup you consume, put away two.

AUGUST 5TH......~CELTIC TREE MONTH HAZEL BEGINS~
~Hazel brings enlightenment and inspiration.
Grace your alter this month with a few Hazelnuts and a hazelnut scented candle...

AUGUST 10TH......GATHER YOUR FIRE TOOLS~
~Candles, small sticks, wicks...just to name a few... prepare your hearth for the season to come

AUGUST 15TH.....TIE YARROW FOR YOUR HEARTH...
~The dried flowers grant courage and protection for the dark season ahead

AUGUST 20TH.....GATHER WHEAT EARS FOR THE SPELLS OF ABUNDANCE.....
~ Enlist the powers of Demeter, Greek Goddess of Grain....Be mindful to ask for only what you are worthy and rightfully due.

AUGUST 24TH.....FULL MOON....RIPENING MOON, CORN MOON, MOTHER MOON..
~ Many believe that this is the moon of the ever eternal MOTHER GODDESS.
Work your spells for good weather and a bountiful harvest this evening and give thanks for the things to come with a wreath in her honor of corn silk and sunflowers placed on or near your hearth


AUGUST 30TH....BEGIN THE PLANS FOR MABON...
The Witches Thanksgiving is close at hand....



~Sisters it is time~

Yes, they did say it...........

I remember being a kid and my gram and grandpa and every adult in the neighbor having the most off the wall sayings for everything.
As an adult I think we pick up some of the lingo of our childhood. I have found myself on countless occasions saying some of the strangest things and then I am left thinking OMG I sound just like my parents and grandparents did .
I remember thinking the only way to get anywhere was in a hand basket, or a bread basket ....I was doomed early on to go to hell in a bread basket... I was doomed their more often than not when wondering were we were going.

I also just thought I was the end all be all because I knew that any time was the perfect time for "half passed a monkeys ass, quarter till this balls".... Now I know I have never said that one to my children ..... Speaking of time I also knew that I was never going to know the time until it was" time to get my own watch". Problem was How was I going to use the watch I get if i didn't know how to tell time.... Unless it showed monkey asses and balls.

I have to laugh every time I pass a corn field ~as growing up in the corn belt.... I would hear as soon as the crops were in, I hope that "corn is knee high by the forth of July"..... Having walked a many a corn fields in my day.... THE CORN WAS ALWAYS KNEE HIGH BY THE FORTH OF JULY ALWAYS.... That however does not stop me from saying the very thing to whom ever is in the car.

I will confess to the occasional bloody stump beating threat , which I had the good fortune of never encountering, and I must say I am glad I didn't...who would want to be beaten with their bloody arm?.... This was a favorite saying of my dads...

I have a question as I am unsure who else has heard this or if its just the farm kids I know... But just exactly how tough are tits on a boar? Really I am still wondering......

As the summer kid in all of us has tried one time or another... MY "ODE TO SUMMER SAYINGS..."its hot enough to fry an egg out there".
Well yes I did try to fry an egg outside one afternoon after my grandma announced that " indeed its hot enough to fry eggs on the sidewalk...... I remember sneaking the egg out of the fridge and walking down the sidewalk in front of old Mollens house and cracking that egg and sitting like I had laid the damn thing and waiting and sweating and waiting and sweating for the egg to cook.....

As a child there are few questions that go unanswered when your parents are mad at you... I am speaking of the question of how did I get here and who did I actually come from.... Some of us fortune enough to grow up in this family have no reason to wonder those thoughts as we were told repeatedly...."I brought you into this world and I can surely take you out" I was a smart ass as a kid,, ( ya think) and well I got brave enough one day to ask where she was taking me... Only to all most have my arm ripped off....

I am also fortunate to have all my fingers perfectly intact, I often wondered if I would be cripples If I were ever caught touching things that I was not supposed to. From far away in another room I would hear" touch that again and I will break your fingers"

I will leave everyone with my finally thought for this Sunday evening .... "I AM FINALLY ABLE TO CONFESS I HAVE MOST DEFINITELY "GROWN TO BIG FOR MY BRITCHES"

Hope everyone had a great weekend. Stay cool... and just think FALL IS ALMOST HERE :)

I am not at all happy that the picture loader thingy~ ma ~bob portion of this little ditty did not work cause I wanted to post pics ;(

FORGIVENESS

so I have been away for a while trying to stay my mind to a happier place. I have found that when I sit down to blog I have nothing really good to say. Everyone at points in their life find that the easiest thing to do is blab on and on about all the not so desired situations they are wrapped in.
Someone I know very dear to me reminded me that what you put out there tends to navigate to you, that the universe does hear you and you often more times than not get exactly what your wanting if not immediately then eventually. With all that said I have not wanted to spill my ugly self in my ramblings of my blog home.
I have thought a-lot about all the things that are ugly and not so desirable in my life of lately and have decided that fuck ugly I want positive and desirable in my life. I have lived a lifetime of ugly for far to long. That I have to forgive the ugly and embrace the result of ugly and move on. We all know that embracing the result of ugly is often difficult and leaves us feeling less than satisfied. Finding peace and comfort in less that satisfied is a struggle we all wrestle with on a daily basis. Some of us wrestle that ugly until we are exhausted, giving into the exhaustion and repeating ugly over and over and over again. Never really growing and gaining control of the initial ugly.
I do not want to feel exhausted any more. I deserve to forgive myself, learn from ugly and move forward and that's exactly what I have finally after all these years decided to do. I can hold myself accountable for the past, but can not dwell on the why's, and the should haves.
I made a statement, more like a promise to myself many years ago and asked everyone who was still speaking to me to abide by my decision and not interfere. I have become very aware as of lately that with out ugly and the shames of ugly I would have never stayed the course. I know I embraced ugly because deep inside I did not believe I deserved anything other than ugly. Ugly became and has been my constant companion because I felt by letting go and moving forward I would forget all the things I left behind and that striving for happy was out of my reach because I didn't deserve to be happy and that no amount of happy I could possible feel could take away all the hurt, lies and deceit I had caused not only myself but many other people I loved and cared about. My ugly hurt so many people, changed so many lives and still on a daily basis manages to rape my heart .
The above paragraph is profound to me because for as long as I can remember since the beginning of this ugly in my life I have tried to understand exactly why I punished myself. RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT I REALIZED THAT THE HARDEST THING IN LIFE IS LEARNING TO FORGIVE ONES SELF. Gaining control over the uncontrollable is a contradiction but it is essentially what I have been trying to do and could not. I need not try to control ugly but change how I let ugly control me.
Distance and time I have been told make a world of difference in how one processes events in their life. I find that ugly does not mean anything less to me today than when it showed its beastly head in my life all those years ago.What has changed is that I no longer believe I am unworthy of WHO I HAVE BECOME . In the face of ugly I have stood and the demons that have haunted me are no longer my shadow. The face looking back at me in the mirror is not hung with shame. I am sure it will shed more tears, but for the most part I recognize myself and I like who I see.

I hope everyone is having a terrific summer. I wanna see photos of vacations, beauty pageants and read about adventures in on line dating.
Fall is right around the corner and I have to admit I am looking forward to the cooler weather and the colors of the season.....My camera and I have some catching up to do.