ANTICIPATION

I so can not wait for NOVEMBER..... The next installment in the generation long movie epic Harry Potter. I am a huge fan and have read all the books with the exception of the last book. I can not bear to see the story end. I sat in tears when my favorite character died, well two of my favorite characters have died. I am a little afraid..I know~ what ? afraid, well anyway call me a looser!! I am ok with it!!!! I am sure Barbara will have to drive me home when we go cause I will be an emotional wreck... Non the less, this is for Barb and our upcoming date and all the other Harry Potter fans around the world.....
Love ya Barbie~ Your the best movie partner a girl could ask for...MUAH~ XOXOX





Since we are speaking of November I thought I would leave you with a song .... Love me some GNR~






E-loumination started this movie anticipation thanks loum.. Check out his Blog post at http://eloumination.blogspot.com/ ... He always has something witty to tell us about . I am still awaiting the online dating blog update...Lets go Loum it is time.


Hope everyone is having a relaxing Sunday afternoon.....~
Teek

The Beautiful Blogger Award

I have finally won something.

A little back story....
I was that kid who would go to the local carnivals and spend all her change on tickets to play the carnival games and never win a thing. I had the good fortune of having a brother who could win with his eyes closed. Thank you Jay for giving me the biggest Pebbles ( Flintstones boys and girls) stuffed animal any girl could want.
I would go to bingo with my Parents and Aunts and those peeps would play bingo with 7000 cards and 3 packs a smokes a piece and they would yell BINGO all the time...This chick has never bingo dobbed a bingo card in her life with any success. I was the girl who did the Good Luck Dance around the chair that I was going to sit in and watch my cards faithfully like an obsessed nanny with my toes crossed and my legs too cause I always had to pee because the hall caller was on crack and called those numbers like an auctioneer and I never had time to run to the bathroom....
I have been to Vegas several times and never come home with anything other than a headache from the cheap booze and the sounds of the machines...Oh I hate the sound of slot machines...
So we all can see I don;t win much....

So Onreeone has given me this blog award....Thank you lady ~apparently she was so excited for me too come collect it and play the game that she called me in the middle of the night like a gazillion times and even called me a BITCH~ hey FUCK OFF!!! and told me to get my award...OK, OK ALREADY~ PSSSTTTT...I have been working and getting the little's ready for school.
She herself has been blogging her summer adventures in picnics and her children's growing pains and empty nest syndrome.... Click the link above if you dont follow her already. She is sure to put a smile on your face. Her glasses rock my world and I am gonna have to get myself a similar pair ~

I will Post my nominations over the weekend.
Have a terrific Friday peeps.~ Teek

Some Pink for your day~~~ Love her

Things Long Forgotten

I came across an old box today
Brought tears and smiles my way
I opened it thinking I might just throw
it all away.....

Letters from a love long past... Postmarked from 1986-1995. All neatly wrapped with the lace I wore around my neck to prom in 1988. photos of individuals who look like strangers but familiar in my brain...... I am not sure why I have kept them as We have not been together since 1995... Reading the damn things gave me a migraine from crying. Crying for all the memories that were good..... and gone, buried far away....replaced with memories that were bad, that over shadow the good that can never be taking away... Why is it so hard to forgive, Why are we creatures of hate? Why Are we so inclined to forgo forgiveness? Why is the hardest part of forgiveness, the ability to forgive ones self ?
I often think of what I would say if I had the courage. Would the words even come out like they play in my brain? Probably not, I tell my self why worry about it anyway, you will never have the opportunity. I know I tell myself that for fear of rejection. I do not believe myself a coward, I believe myself still deeply ashamed, and horrible scared. Fear of the unknown keeps us from doing so many things.
I am hoping I have with in this destiny a path yet to walk, one that is understanding and forgiving and forged with compassion. Compassion for the human nature of mistakes and lessons learned and humble in its ability to be see the truth for what it is. I may never know for my fear is real, the one true demon per say that I battle every day. I believe we are our own worst criticizer, that our demon will sit with us until we cease to exist.
Even after all this time, all the tears and for all the reaching being done, my ability to take the first step may never happen. For I have yet to learn how to properly balance the darkness of my past, with the light of my future. Maybe, just maybe one day this too shall pass...WHO KNOWS
What I do know right this moment is broken hearts do mend, SLOWLY and we all seek what you know because it is comfortable and EVERY LOVE IS MEASURED/JUDGED BY YOUR FIRST LOVE~ WE/ THEY are all alike we just choose to see or not see the similarities, unless those similarities suit our purpose.

He looks the same today just a wiser, older~ with his beautiful, witty wife and amazingly talented and beautiful children all 5 of them. I was surprised to look at pictures just today and still see that mischievous smile and sparkle in his eye. It was great to see that smile... ( No I am not stalking my ex. ) Just his Fab Wife.. Cause I secretly wish I had her glasses :)
Fab wife ~thanks so much for being the bigger person and reaching out when I didn't,.... gimme those glasses already

~ I kept the box and its content,
Tucked it back in the closet for another day~